Disgusting me

[retrocool]

I don't have words for my own self,
I am so disgusting, so yucky to smell,
I am an immortal personality,
Who never accepts the reality.

I don't have a singe true friend,
No one I can write emails for to send,
I am not loved by a single soul,
And will never be in my life, whole.

I always tried to push things my way,
But everyone and evertything went away,
I was never satified with what I had,
For eveything else I was Mad.

My life is disgusting everyone knows,
They hate me from within, but rarely show,
NO that's not because of sympathy but humanity,
My heart they feel, has no sensibility.

I Smoke, I Drink, I Steal, I Lie,
Waiting eagerly when will I die,
I am irresponsible, irritating, fucked up man,
I wanna get off all this as soon as I can.

But only IF I could get a chance,
I wanna live a life somewhat enhanced,
Dreams are always in every eyes,
Without seeing its true or lies.

I too want a girl I can romance with,
IF she agrees, on the floor to dance with,
I'll keep her happy to the best I can,
She'll be proud to have me as her man.

I know I can't be forgiven for all my folony,
BUT I too wanna live on a path u guys will show me,
AND IF she says that she will be mine,
I feel everything with me would be fine.

OH Gawd I pray in my next life,
Don't make me what i was this time,
Make me an animal, make me a bird,
Make me anyone but someone never heard.

-SELF WRITTEN-

[Niki_Grewal]

If its written byurself then it means its reality,,,,right????? if its reality then change ur self,,,,,u have atleast one positive aspect of ur personality tht u r honest abt ur image,,,,atleast u knw whts wrong with you,,,,,,u have identified all wht u need to change,,,,this is the first step towards betterment,,,,,try to change things one by one,,,,,see no gal will be urs,,,if u hate yourself ,,,try to love urself,,,,atleast some positive traits of ur personality,,,,,,i have read all of ur posts,,,another poem too,,,,,wanna say u r a more of a body kinda guy rather than soul,,,,go for fulfilling the needs of soul,,,rather than juss passion,,,,,very clear u need lots of love to change urself,,,,gals have ability to change any damn guy with love,,,but still u have to initiate,,,,u have to walk on the way to change,,,,best of luck for goodchanges. Be +ve thinker,,,,,feel ur worth,,,,show it to world

[!!!BOY!!!]

Sucha a big -ive thinker

[retrocool]

well thats what i was like few years back, and what i am now is due to someone who adviced me something like u ppl are doing! thanks anyways...

[.J@tti.]

hmm.. listen everyone has some negative qualities but you can always turn negative qualities into positive ones.. it's just a matter of channeling your energy... steal, but steal good thoughts; lie; but lie for others good... and things like that.. life is beautiful and it's always worth living.. we all have bad but we also have a good.. just see the good in you and other people around.. just a matter of way of looking.. ENjoy.. and GOD LOVES YOU